Oh hey, I actually had missed that there were two separate flashbacks (poor reading comprehension on my part - I see now that sovay linked both). I actually just got done reading the rest of Siege and yeah, it makes more sense now ... though it also casts Winnowill's control of Smelt in a much darker light. The flashback pretty much states that she'd brainwashed him -- again, allowing for unreliable narrator-ness. But I agree with what you said above that, at least to some extent, she's fooling herself, because I don't think her extreme reaction to his betrayal makes sense if she doesn't have some feelings for him. And I can see it being partly genuine on his end as well. After all, it wouldn't have to be 24/7 mind control for him to have been extremely pissed off when he figured out that she was messing with his mind. Anyone would react badly to that. All she really had to do directly was make him forget why he was there, and then start leading him down the primrose path of little temptations (create a need, fill it, etc). Honestly I think she'd be more interested in that kind of manipulation anyway than just outright making him love her.